Paxina: 002	Celebrity
Like greatness, celebrity is a transitory experience. It is never consistent. It depends on the myth-making imagination of humankind. The person who experiences the “celebrity-ness” must have a feeling for the myth se is in. Se must reflect what is projected upon hir. And se must have a strong sense of the sardonic. This is what uncouples hir from belief in hir own pretensions. The sardonic is all that permits hir to move with in hirself. Without this quality, even occasional celebrity will destroy a person. Understand too, the meaning of the word “celebrity”. A celebrity is a person who is well known for being well known. As such I have no doubt in my mind that I am somewhat of a celebrity in many peoples lives. I am certainly unforgettable. [I do not blow my own trumpet here, merely relay what I am told, more times than I have been told that I am loved]. I hope that you will now understand what I have always been about. It has always been necessary that I deal with people in this manner, since so much is expected of me as a matter of course. This happens because, my demeanor, my personality and the level of confidence I have in myself, demands the attention of other people. This is not the same as “seeking attention”. When I said before that we should understand one another, I meant: you should understand me. I already understand you. Better than you might like. Because I have been trained to do exactly that. Some people have a problem in dealing with me because of their inability to come to terms with me in regard to myself. They attempt to deal with me or examine me in the light of others. Or in the light of their own beliefs.  It is at this very point that all understanding fails them. Could they understand just this one single aspect of their thought process – they might be more able to judge the character of other people. Or even me. Being a legend was not always financially gainful. But some times it paid off. I/we were adequately compensated. But never saved any of it. Easy come, easy go. Yes? This is more than a second-approximation answer; it is a straight line computation. Depend on it. Not satisfied with blaming me for your own intransigence, you will then inform me that I am also to blame for making you into what you are. You  will question me on many things – and I answer them in the sense that I show you how I think, or how my thought process works. I do not suggest that you adopt my methods. I tell you:: be prepared to appreciate what you meet. What I am describing is difficult and that you will have to be hard to deal with the possible consequences of re-defining your own thought patterns. It is akin to reformatting the hard drive on your computer. Or overwriting files with new updated files I understand an individual, rather than in reference to other peoples behavior, or actions. That is why I can deal with an individual. I see the patterns in people. All of us are a pattern. You can plumb us by our language. Or by the precise and delicate delineations for ways to administer treachery and death. A thing to note about the people that you meet is how they react to yourself. If you maintain always the same projection of personality, you will notice several basic reaction patterns: any enclosed discipline sets its stamp, its pattern upon its host. That pattern is susceptible to analysis and prediction. Motivational patterns are similar amongst certain types of people. That is to say:: there will be certain types of motivation that are similar despite differing schools of thought or opposed aims. You will study how to separate this element for your analysis – in the beginning, through interrogation patterns that betray the inner orientation of the person interrogating you; secondly, by close observation of language-thought orientation of those under your analysis. You will also find it fairly simple to determine what their interests are, regarding you through both voice inflection and speech pattern. Customs may differ, but meanings remain the same… Watch next time when a person shifts a conversation to something seemingly innocent, irrelevant to the conversation underway, and you will observe that whereof I speak. Watch reaction also when you make a general statement – who leaps to defend or attack. You will have your revelation out of displaying a general garment, and seeing who claims it to be cut to their own fit. Listen. By what a person despises, se is truly known. Mental growth, like physical growth is limited by that necessity which is present in the least amount. And, naturally, the least favorable conditions control the growth rate. Remember too, that growth itself can produce unfavorable conditions unless treated with extreme care. Examine your own emotional involvement. Without logic, the natural human is an animal. Your projection of logic on to all affairs is un-natural, but suffered to continue for its usefulness. Your problem solutions are concepts, that in a very real sense, are projected out side your self to be studied, rolled around and examined. Any thing outside of yourself, this you can see and apply your logic to. But it’s a human trait that when we encounter personal problems, those things most deeply personal are the most difficult to bring out for us to scan. We tend to flounder, blaming everything but the actual deep-seated thing that’s really chewing on us. “Do you wrestle with dreams? Do you contend with shadows? Do you move in a kind of sleep? Time has slipped away Your life is stolen You tarried with trifles Victim of your folly”. “There should be a science of discontent”.                            Life in My fathers House:: People need hard times and hard lessons to develop their psychic muscles. All design is the result of discontent. For we design something new to supercede that which we already have – because that which we have is not good enough for our needs. All science is the result of discontent. For we need better answers than the ones that serve us now. That which was true yesterday may not be the truth tomorrow. Indeed even the future is not what it used to be. The absence of a thing, this can be as deadly as the presence of a thing. And here we live blissfully unaware of how we are poisoned. A poison so subtle and insidious… so irreversible. It wont even kill you unless you stop taking it. What do you think that poison is? And there is all the time patches of blackness. Black is a blind remembering. You listen for pack sounds, for cries of those who hunted your ancestors, in a past so ancient that only your most primitive cells remember. The ears see. The nostrils see. My father once told me: respect for the truth is the basis for all morality. Something cannot emerge from nothing. My own downfall, my own harsh awakening came from neglecting this dictum, from forgetting this message. And I have paid with my life for my error. Am paying still. Have paid for all sins yet to be committed. With you this close to me. We have a saying in Spanish:: “God is a Spaniard, for at night he fixes all the mistakes the Spanish make during the day”. It is a quaint idea. And also a profound thought. Here is another thought for you You have eyes – but cannot see without light. If you are on the floor of the valley, you cannot see beyond your valley. Always fight the temptation to choose a clear, safe course. That path leads ever to stagnation. If you rely only on your eyes, you weaken the other senses. I found this somewhere - I Think its wonderful... Paradox is a Pointer, showing you to look beyond it. If paradoxes bother you, that betrays your deep desire for absolutes. The relativist treats paradox as merely interesting, perhaps amusing, or, even educational. I discovered once, recently from one of my bright blonde wives, that the undeserving maintain power by promoting hysteria. They do this by promoting ignorance. She admitted, not in so many words of course, that this was the mode she employed for “crowd control”. She is a manipulator like me. Like the other FIVE of YOU. I understand: Ignorance thrives on hysteria. Hysteria leads to Argument, leads to violence. Because it closes off the senses. My goodness. I just used the word violence The walls of the self righteous are proof against ALL arguments against evil. It leads to self-justification of all sorts of obscene nonsense. And, ultimately, to self-fulfilling prophecy.   The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings, but shorter tempers; wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints; we spend more, but have less; we buy more, but enjoy it less. We have bigger houses and smaller families; more conveniences, but less time; we have more degrees, but less sense; more knowledge, but less judgment; more experts, but more problems; more medicine, but less wellness. We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get angry too quickly, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too seldom, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We've learned how to make a living, but not a life; we've added years to life, not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbor. We've conquered outer space, but not inner space; we've done larger things, but not better things. We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul; we've split the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less; we plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait; we have higher incomes, but lower morals; we have more food, but less appeasement; we build more computers to hold more information to produce more copies than ever, but have less communication; we've become long on quantity, but short on quality. These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion; tall men, and short character; steep profits, and shallow relationships. These are the times of world peace, but domestic warfare; more leisure, but less fun; more kinds of food, but less nutrition. These are days of two incomes, but more divorce; of fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throw away morality, one-night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer to quiet to kill. It is a time when there is much in the show window and nothing in the stockroom; a time when technology has brought this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to make a difference, or to just hit "Skip Ahead >>>>"...